[ 10-23-03 ] [ 9:06 p.m.]
[ I hate boys and I hate myself ]

I know I said I didn't want Alex anymore.

But obviously I do, because he's all I think about.

And I... and Josh and I...

I can't do this anymore!!!

*cries*

My head says "don't hurt Josh" and my heart says "you love Alex" and... I...

THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE!!!

I just want to curl up in a little ball and die!

Just as long as I won't hurt anymore!!!

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